Life After Loss Hiding Behind the Rings No More

Life After Loss Hiding Behind the Rings No More

The past Monday marked 8 months since my late husband passed away. I didn’t cry like the previous 7 months. I decided to just take it as a normal day. I have been under the weather for more than a week and that day I finally felt better, with more energy. That morning on the way to work, I suddenly felt happy because I realized that I may have just pushed through a big step of grieving, I started to feel acceptance.

Life After Loss Hiding Behind the Rings No Mor

When we were dating many years ago, he was in America and I was in China. The longest time we didn’t physically see each other was 8 months. But we did see each other every day on SKYPE for many hours. We celebrated his birthday, 4th of July, Labor Day and Thanksgiving over the internet. Even with a 12 hour time difference between us, we would still eat together, the only difference was for me it was breakfast and for him it was dinner. These last 8 months have been more difficult than those 8 months. There is no hope that he is coming back and I can’t see him even on the internet. He is totally gone without a return date.

Life After Loss Hiding Behind the Rings No Mor

Over the last 8 months, I have pushed myself outside of my comfort zone quite often in order to heal myself. First, I created a lot of new memories by traveling to Hawaii and Paris alone. There were not any romantic stories from those trips just in case you are wondering. 😉 I even made a few new friends after he passed away and it is new for me that they are just my friends, not our friends. Those experiences helped me rediscover myself and I realized that I am very capable of conquering the world and being happy again without him.

Life After Loss Hiding Behind the Rings No Mor

By the 6 month mark, I stopped wearing my wedding ring. The obvious fact is I don’t have a husband and I am not married. It was a very weird feeling to be without the ring and even now I still sometimes reach to that finger. It was a big change at that time and I needed a piece of him to be with me, so I wore my engagement ring and his ring that I gave to him on both of my hands. Those two rings provided the safety net I needed at that time.

Life After Loss Hiding Behind the Rings No Mor

Then by month 8, I decided to wear no rings because I realized that I should not hide behind those symbols. I am not married, not engaged, and I don’t need to wear them to show how much I miss him or how much I love him. He is there in my heart, and there will be a place for him forever that no one can replace. To be honest with you, it is kind of scary to be at the beginning again, but I know he is always there for me. If I am sad or scared I still can reach to him in my mind.

Life After Loss Hiding Behind the Rings No Mor

For me, the real acceptance is to not always look for him, lean on him mentally, and ask him to give me signs or come to my dreams. It means I need to count on myself to save my own day or make myself happy. Does it mean that I am ready to move on? I don’t think I am fully ready yet. I still think about him all the time. But I am finally eager to think about my own future. It is still not clear what I want, but it is a big jump that I started to plan my future without him. It will take a long time to come to complete acceptance and I am nowhere near there, but this status change forces myself to directly face this world, fail, cry and then really learn how to be independent again.

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Just a side note, this Love bag in the photo above I got from Shopbop and now they are having a big sale. See the details below. Happy shopping!

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From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

Last week in Michigan, we had a few super hot days with temperatures above 90 degrees. This week, the heat wave has remained. To be honest with you, I have no complaints because I love summer and warm weather.

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

But I also know I need to prepare for the fall. I love to continue using some of my summer pieces to transition to fall. Just like this RUFFLED SLEEVELESS BLOUSE from Picadilly Canada. It has black and white, two colors and sizes run from XS to XXL. I got a size small a few month ago, but now after I lost some weight, it is a little bit big on me. It is quite long for my 5 foot frame so I always tuck it in to my pants or skirt.

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

This RUFFLED SLEEVELESS BLOUSE is a great transition piece. Wear it in warm weather on it’s own, or when it’s cool pair it with a cute jacket or sweater over the top. This button-up top has a collar and front ruffles – a classy piece that can be worn for almost any occasion. This sleeveless top is done in a solid chiffon. It is sheer, but there is a solid colored spaghetti top that comes with it, so it is quite handy. 😉 I added the black pin to the shirt to get that Chanel vibe.

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

I wear it with the CENTER SEAMED ANKLE PANT from the same company. The Center Seamed Ankle Pant is a wardrobe staple for fall. With a wide elasticated waist band, and slight flare at the ankle, these pants are very flattering and easy to wear. These pants are done in a textured double jacquard.

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

I am not going to show you how to wear this pair of black pants. Everyone knows how to wear them, right? They goes with everything! So below is a look that I paired this top with for a fall style look with faux leather and burgundy.

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

Both my top and pants are quite well made. Picadilly Canada is a Canadian Made & Designed company EST. 1975. This global brand has designed for today’s independent, confident and active woman for over 40 years. From work to play, from summer to fall, with these classic closet staples.

From Summer to Fall with Picadilly Canada

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Thank you for reading, and if you like what you read, please comment below or share it with your friends. Don’t forget to follow me on Facebook and Twitter for new post updates, and follow me on Instagram for all the amazing fashion, beauty and life style products that I will share with you. Of course, don’t forget to check out my Instagram stories daily to know me better as a person. Finally, don’t forget to follow me on YouTube for my fashion, beauty and life style videos. Have a great day and see you soon!

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Grace

http://colorandgrace.com occasionally receives vendor/ brand sponsorships for mentioning their products and services.

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