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Life After Loss—Embracing Changes and Recreating My New Life

If you are new to my blog, read this post “Life After Loss—Full Time Blogging” to catch up on my big life changing decision. πŸ˜‰ Anyway, the last few days at work last week were quite emotional for me, my students and my co-workers. I received many hugs, sweet gifts and invites to come back to my student’s graduation ceremonies. Many of my students kept asking me “Are you pulling a prank on us and at the last second you’re going to tell us that it is just a joke?” It just broke my heart. There were so many kids crying on my shoulder and asking me to stay. I felt I was a very cruel person to let them down. There were many kids that told me that I am their favorite teacher. The one who is always chill, caring and kind. Some of them told me that I have the best balance of nice and strict. Some kids I have never taught even came to me to tell me that they will miss me because I have had a very positive impact on them…

Life After Loss---Embracing Changes and  Recreating My New Life

The last class finished, and I was cleaning up my classroom, I left everything exactly the same for the new teacher, and for my kids to feel this is still their home. The only thing I took home is my school logo mug and all the letters and signs that my kids made for me. When I was tidying up the room for the last time, I suddenly felt sad. This is real. This will not be my room anymore, I will not be here with my sweet students anymore. Then the last school day, after millions of hugs and comforting many teary eyed students, saying good-bye to my awesome co-workers, I was very emotionally drained. When I got home, I felt very blue. I have been waiting for this day for 3 years so that I can finally live in my dreams as a full time blogger, but saying good-bye to a beloved place and people has become very difficult for me.

Life After Loss---Embracing Changes and  Recreating My New Life

I put on my headphones and turned on Pandora on my phone. I needed some music therapy, either to calm me down or let my emotions out. Either way, I knew I would feel better afterwards. All the grieving practice this year has made me understand myself more and I’ve learned I need to give attention to the sadness, hurt, and other uncomfortable feelings, so later I will be more able (and likely) to feel the happiness and joy when it comes to me. I was singing along with some random songs and just let my tears run out freely. Then suddenly a very familiar song started. It was “Somewhere Over The Rainbow”. This was a favorite song between my late husband and me. This song has become a sign of him trying to comfort me many times since he passed away. You can read this post “Life After Loss – The First Time Traveling Alone” to see how this song has helped me through some difficult times.

Life After Loss---Embracing Changes and  Recreating My New Life

Listening to this song, I was crying even more and wished he was here with me to comfort me and also to celebrate this moment as a big step toward me creating my life long dream. Then I calmed down. Yes, he would be very happy and proud of me because this was one of his dying wishes, too. He told me a few days before he passed away “Never give up on your fashion dreams. You have it.”

Life After Loss---Embracing Changes and  Recreating My New Life

It may sound very weird, but recently I started to realize that losing my husband was not just a total disaster for me. It also has become a great opportunity for me to rediscover myself. Now I know, I am the sun of my own world and I have the ability to light up my own life, but also to light up others.

Life After Loss---Embracing Changes and  Recreating My New Life

I lost the love of my life this year, but I have received so much love from many people. It is not the same type of love, but they all make me feel fulfilled and valued. Most importantly, I gained the greatest love from within myself. With this self-love and confidence, I know I am ready to embrace more changes and create my new life.

Life After Loss---Embracing Changes and  Recreating My New Life

You can read all the Life After Loss series here and Living with Cancer series here.

Life After Loss---Embracing Changes and  Recreating My New Life

Photo credit: Grace Liang/ @Inspiremyfancy

Thank you for reading, and if you like what you read, please comment below or share it with your friends. Don’t forget to follow me on Facebook and Twitter for new post updates, and follow me on Instagram for all the amazing fashion, beauty and life style products that I will share with you. Of course, don’t forget to check out my Instagram stories daily to know me better as a person. Finally, don’t forget to follow me on YouTube for my fashion, beauty and life style videos. Have a great day and see you soon!

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Grace
http://colorandgrace.com occasionally receives vendor/ brand sponsorships for mentioning their products and services.

Life After Loss—Full Time Blogging

Three years ago on December 7th, I had just started my blog β€œColor and Grace,” I was day dreaming every morning when I was driving to my teaching job, that someday I would be able to do full time blogging. Then after 6 months, I ran all the numbers and set a goal for myself. The goal was after 3 years of blogging, I would be able to quit my full time teaching job and do my blogging instead.

Life After Loss---Full Time Blogging

Today, 13 days later than I originally planned, I finally did, and today is my first day of full time blogging.

Life After Loss---Full Time Blogging

I should have let my school know this past summer that I would not come back, but I chickened out at the last second, because now it is just me. If I don’t make it, there is no one behind me and telling me “no worries, I got you.” Quickly after the new school year started, I realized that my fast growing blog and my full time teaching job left me no time to eat or sleep. A few health issues accrued and I realized that I had to make a choice.

Life After Loss---Full Time Blogging

I spent a few weeks researching, writing my business plan, and trying new things out to generate income for my blog. Soon after, I followed through with my business plan. I got more sponsors and my life became even more crazy busy. At end of October, my health issues became more and more serious. I know there is never a great time to do it, so just manned up and got it done. So I informed my school of my decision.

Life After Loss---Full Time Blogging

Luckily I have a great school. They are sad that I am leaving but also very happy that I finally decided to pursue my dream. We all felt that we should keep the news that I am leaving as long as we could so my students would have a few more normal months. Last Friday, was the day I announced to all my students, their parents and the whole school that I was leaving. It was a very emotional day for all of us. Besides a lot of tears, there was so much laughter too. My middle school students plan to kidnap me so I would not leave them. πŸ˜‰ One of my sweet 6th graders asked me “Are you having a midlife crisis?” Lol, not exactly, but it sure looks like in it a lot of peoples eyes.

Life After Loss---Full Time Blogging

This year is for sure a special one on the record. I lost my husband in January and now in December I quit my job. The past 11 months have been the period that I learned about and rediscovered for myself who I am and who I want to be. I have finally come to the conclusion that I have the ability to make my dream become a reality. This realization has totally changed the way I think and my entire life. That is some confidence that I have never had before. So now, all I need to do is to dream, plan and make it happen!

Life After Loss---Full Time Blogging

You can read all the Life After Loss series here and Living with Cancer series here.

Life After Loss---Full Time Blogging

Photo credit: Grace Liang

Thank you for reading, and if you like what you read, please comment below or share it with your friends. Don’t forget to follow me on Facebook and Twitter for new post updates, and follow me on Instagram for all the amazing fashion, beauty and life style products that I will share with you. Of course, don’t forget to check out my Instagram stories daily to know me better as a person. Finally, don’t forget to follow me on YouTube for my fashion, beauty and life style videos. Have a great day and see you soon!

|TODAY’S LINKUP PARTY:|


Grace
http://colorandgrace.com occasionally receives vendor/ brand sponsorships for mentioning their products and services.

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