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Life After Loss – The First Birthday Without My Husband

Life After Loss – The First Birthday Without My Husband

The birthdays before I met my husband were sad and torturous. I wished somebody would say “Happy Birthday” to me at least. My Mom and Dad never remembered my birthdays. Now, as you can imagine, I hated birthdays. I honestly don’t even remember how I spent my 30th birthday. I guess It was just another day, or maybe worse than a normal day. πŸ˜‰ After I met my husband, he was so angry that I was treated that way. He said he will make up for all the hard times I had and from now on, it will be only good times!

He did follow through.

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

My husband planned a surprise birthday party in Shanghai for me, but my best friend told me everything beforehand. My husband was still mad at her after many years for wrecking the surprise. πŸ˜‰ Anyway, I got a lot of gifts for the first time in my whole life. We had a great dinner and wonderful time that day. But above all, the most amazing feeling I got was to feel like I was worth it.

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

My man always made every birthday of mine very special. For my first one in America, I got more people to celebrate this special day of mine. My in-laws and sister-in-laws called me and sang Happy Birthday. My step-daughter secretly baked my first homemade birthday cake. From that moment I knew my husband not just gave me all his love, he also gave me a family that I never had.

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

The highlights of all those years birthday has to be my 40th birthday. This time he finally pulled off his surprise party. πŸ˜‰ There were so many family and friends there when I walked in. He even had an improve comedy group involved. I certainly feel like I was the most spoiled wife in the world. πŸ™‚

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

This is my first birthday without my man. I was not sure what my day would look like, or if I even wanted to celebrate it. I have to be honest with you, it turned out to be by far the funnest birthday ever! Several weeks before my birthday, my step-daughter and her fiancΓ© had already demanded I leave that day unscheduled. Birthday morning, they came in when I was still in my bed and they cooked a delicious breakfast for me. She made me wear a sparkly birthday crown and purple glitter birthday sash and took me to two surprise activities.

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

The first one was pottery making. I have always want to try this but somehow just never did. The instructor had to do some quick operations to save my bowl but I am pretty happy with the result. πŸ˜‰

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

The second activity was painting. My husband and I decided to go to Paris to celebrate if he could beat the cancer. My step-daughter picked the Eiffel Tower to paint.

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

Overall, the first birthday without my husband was not bad at all. My husband is not physically here with me anymore, but I see him everywhere in my life. My step-kids all love cooking and enjoying life just like him. My step-daughter always takes care of me just like him. My sister-in-laws call me or text me just like him…… The only difference now is that he is not just one person, he is in many of us who loved him dearly.

Life After Loss the First Birthday Without My Husband

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Life After Loss – From We to I

Life After Loss – From We to I

A few days ago, during lunch break at work, we were talking about our upcoming Spring break and everyone’s plans. When I told them about my first vacation by myself, I kept using WE. I finally noticed the confusion after a co-worker asked me if I am going with a friend.

Life After Loss From We to I

I did the same thing many years ago right after my husband and I got married, but back then I had a hard time to say WE instead of I. Now it is the total opposite.

Life After Loss From We to I

It doesn’t matter if I like it or not, I am doing things, making decisions by myself and creating some new memories without my husband. But in a way, he is always there with me whatever I am doing.

Life After Loss From We to I

I say good morning to him everyday and I can clearly see him in my head. On weekdays, he always got up 15 minutes before I do to cook breakfast for us, and pack snacks for me. Then he kissed me and woke me up. On weekends, we loved to stay up late to catch up on some of our favorite TV shows. So sleeping in was a must have for us. πŸ˜‰ He usually pretended to still be sleeping when I woke up. I would pinch his nose and call him lazy bones in Chinese. He would say “You are a big lazy bones” in Chinese back to me. This is one of a few of the Chinese sentences that he knew how to say very well. We loved to spoil each other and we were never tired of those same old jokes.

Life After Loss From We to I

When I get home every day now, I still say “I am home!” while I walk in to the kitchen. I can hear him saying “Welcome home! How is your day?” in my head. I also say good night to him too. My shoulders still remember the snuggled feeling from his big and warm hug……

Life After Loss From We to I

I am clearly seeing his influence in my life now. Every decision I made after he passed away, his idea and opinion was considered – from what to eat for dinner, to where to go for a vacation. We WERE each other. He took half of my life with him when he passed away. But he also left half of him with me. I am still a whole person, just with a broken heart. He never broke my heart, his departure did. But he had fought so hard to stay with me longer. Now, I am starting to feel his love is healing my wounds.

Life After Loss From We to I

Life After Loss From We to I

Photo credits: Ashley Buck.

Thank you for reading, and if you like what you read, please comment below or share it with your friends. Don’t forget to follower me on FaceBook and Twitter for new post updates, and follow me on Instagram for all the amazing fashion, beauty and life style products that I will share with you, of course don’t forget to check out my Instagram story daily to know me better as a person. Finally don’t forget to follow me on YouTube for my fashion, beauty and life style videos. Have a great day and see you soon!

|SHOP MY LOOK:|

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Meet our co-host Rania from The Wardrobe Stylist


Rania’s Biography:
Branding herself The Wardrobe Stylist, Rania began styling and blogging nearly a decade ago. She worked with a long list of clients and as a blogger, she covered several coveted events. She recently launched the Reversible Pocket Square. Made from 2 distinct fabrics, the reversible pocket square takes a modern and innovative shift on the age old accessory, allowing the wearer to choose which side to showcase or have both sides conveniently peak through.

Please visit her or follow her on your favorite social medias below:
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