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Life After Loss 10 Year Wedding Anniversary Without Him

Life After Loss 10 Year Wedding Anniversary Without Him

Hello man,

How is your new life in heaven? Is everyday just like vacation? I can imagine you are either holding your beer joking around with your old and new friends, or napping on the beach. But I know, you would rather stay with me, with our family.

We used to send emails to each other all the time when we first met many years ago. Do you remember? I am still surprised that you could stand my horrible grammar and broken sentences. But you had always been so patient with me and never showed any frustration with my limited English those many years ago. Through those letters, we got to know each other and I felt I had already known you for my whole life since the very beginning. So, for our 10 year wedding anniversary on 6/18, I am going to write you a letter, just like before.

Life After Loss 10 Years Wedding Anniversary Without him

Right after you passed away, your sister, Penny, thanked me very much for making you the happiest man on Earth over the last 10 years. I told her those 10 years were the best time of my life as well. There were so many evenings we were having delicious dinners, wine and holding hands telling each other how lucky we both were to be husband and wife. Yes, we were quite cheesy. 😉

Man, thank you so much for surprising me with my Chinese friend showing up on our wedding day. You knew that none of my side of the family could make it to our wedding and you wanted to bring a little bit of China home to me. You tried so hard to invite our Chinese friends to our wedding in America. You were always so good at surprising me, like the big surprise party on my 40th birthday. I planned to give you one this year on your birthday as well but I didn’t get the chance.

Life After Loss 10 Years Wedding Anniversary Without him

I am doing ok. Most of days I am pretty good, but there are some other days I am a hot mess. Can you believe I cried at work a few days ago? I have never done that before in my whole life. I guess now I have a new record. 😉 I am trying very hard to keep our little house and big yard in order. We got a new roof and our pool got a new surface. Now we are all working on your life celebration party as you requested. I know there must be a lot of beer, wine and laughter, no tears. I will remember, sir.

Life After Loss 10 Years Wedding Anniversary Without him

Everyone says the first year of being a widow is the hardest, I am not even half a year there yet so I don’t really know. But I do know it sucks and I am very good at crying in public now. Do you remember how I used to having trouble crying? It certainly is not the case now. I am an expert at crying in recent months. 😉 There are many milestones in the first year of being alone and I have survived – Valentine’s Day, my birthday, the anniversary I came to America to marry you, and your birthday. Now our wedding anniversary is just around at the corner. I have no clue what I am going to do without you and how big of a mess I will be. But I will live, like usual. Wish me luck man!

Life After Loss 10 Years Wedding Anniversary Without him

I miss you sooooo much and love you forever!

Your trouble wife, Grace

Life After Loss 10 Years Wedding Anniversary Without him

Photos credited: Grace Liang

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Life After Loss – My Husband’s First Birthday After He Passed Away

Life After Loss – My Husband’s First Birthday After He Passed Away

Special days bring so much pain to those who have lost their loved ones. Last Sunday was my husband’s first birthday since he passed away. I started having a super difficult time about a week beforehand. A couple of days before his birthday, my emotions took over completely and I was crying the whole way home from work when I was driving. It was rainy and there was bad traffic, I knew it was dangerous, but I just couldn’t hold it in or control it anymore.

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

Based on my 4 month grieving experience, I know I need to find a way to save myself before I go too far into depression. So I had a few morning pep talks on the way to work, but those only cheered me up for a short time.I have tried many things that worked for me before, but somehow this time it just couldn’t fix it. I really miss him so I went on to his Facebook. I was crying even harder when I started to read. But later on, I started to laugh, louder and louder. Yes!!! That was my man.

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

“Some quality hammock time on the last Friday in August. Oh yes I did!”

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

May 28th 2016, last year on his birthday. The first type of chemo had just failed and the tumors came back crazy fast and big.

“Thanks very much for all the birthday wishes! I’m in such a good mood I’m giving you all Monday off, with pay! 😃”

“I read this is National Beer Day. I’m a sucker for tradition!”

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

“Well he doesn’t shed and I haven’t heard him make any noise. I guess there’s worse pets.”

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

“Just in case you weren’t sure how to vacation I thought I’d help you out!”

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

All of those were posted after we found out about his cancer or during his difficult treatments.

My step-daughter booked us a camping trip last year before he passed away to celebrate my husband’s birthday this year. We all came but we barely mentioned him when we were at the campground. Everybody has had a few hard days so we just enjoyed each other’s company. We had a delicious camp fire dinner, walked in the rain, ate s’mores, and played Uno. There was a short toast and we shared a bottle of wine. Just like the good old days.

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

The next day was Memorial Day. My father-in-law and brother-in-law were the co-grand marshalls for the parade, both are military veterans. Our big family all came to support them as well. While listening to the speech, I was thinking of my husband. He is my hero too. He had kept his positive spirit all the way to the end. He never had even one tear during this whole journey. He had left so much for us. Yes, I am super sad. He was too. But he chose to really enjoy every minute his life had left. So should I!

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

On the way back home I discarded my GPS and went on some back roads which I never have been on before. There were many lakes and beautiful houses along the way. My smile was getting bigger and bigger. I suddenly noticed that I love driving on the winding road, it is so fun! Now I think I really understand why my husband always loved to travel. It is pretty cool to get lost in a totally strange place and just enjoy the unfamiliar scenery. Life is good again and I will remember to enjoy every little thing that makes me happy.

Happy birthday man and thank you very much for saving me again!

Life after loss my husband's first birthday after he passed away

Photos credited: Ashley Buck.

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Grace

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