Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

Hi Man,

How are you? What does it feel like living in heaven? Or you already finished your reincarnation and on the way to us? Please give me some signs so I can find you.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

A few weeks ago at a gathering event, someone asked me, “If you could have any super powers, what would you like to have”. I said “To have the power to bring back my late husband.” It was suddenly deadly quiet. I know, I am still the same old same as a party pooper.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

One year ago yesterday, you left us. There were some memories on the last few days of your life, they were just too painful to think about, but I set my goal to revisit them now. Wish me luck, man.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

We were sent to the hospice a few days before you passed away. It was the most devastated moment of my life. There were no treatments, and no hopes left for us. Only death was awaiting. I was shocking, shaking and angry. When we left your patient room, I couldn’t help crying crazily. That hallway to the hospice was the path to your death. Someone, or something was really going to take you away from me, forever, no matter how much I have begged. You were my best friend and my soul mate, how could I live without you?

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

I was holding your hand and crying, you just smiled at me weakly and repeated “I am so sorry, I am so so sorry”. I knew what you meant. You had said it a few times before that day. You felt so bad that you took me here from China and now you could not be able to take care of me anymore. You often said I was cheated because we only got 10 years together.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

The night before you fully entered your coma stage, I was with you. You were rarely opening your eyes, speaking or answering any questions. It was almost midnight and I was ready to go to sleep too. I kissed you on your lips and said “Good night!” Your eyes didn’t even open but you answered “Good night, baby!” Then I said “I love you”, just like we always did before we go to sleep. But there were no answer. “Hey, I said I love you, man!” I continued. You opened your eyes and smiled at me “I love you too.” And those were your final words.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

Then, it was the last day. All the families came but you already had no response at all. You were on your way of leaving us behind. Nurses came in and asked everyone to the waiting room so they could wash your body and change the sheets. I asked the nurse to give me a few minutes and asked others to just leave us alone. I was holding your hand and kissed on your lips. Then I whispered to your ear, β€œDon’t worry about me. I will take care of myself. If you need to leave, just leave. I am not mad at you and I love you so ,so much! You are the best husband and I am very lucky that married you!” There were no responds but I noticed your breathing was slowing down. I was not sure at that moment if I saw it right. I stepped out and only a couple of minutes later nurse called me in and the doctor confirmed that you were gone.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

I thought I was fully prepared about your death. But when that moment came, I just lost it. The only thing I said was “Man, how can you do this do me?” Sorry man, I should be more strong and let you leave without any hesitation.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

It has been a year after you were gone, and yes, I am living without you. Just like you often said, “You are a very strong person and you will be just fine.” I couldn’t use fine to describe this first year without you, but I have followed through my promise to you to take care of myself. I went to see psychologist when I need help. I eat, sleep well and I am still following my fashion dreams as you wished. I even quit my teaching job and now full-time blogging.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

Before, it was always you to remind me how much I have achieved when I was doubting myself. Now finally I learned to tell myself the same. You often said there was no regret of your life because you have nice kids, loved what you do, traveled around the world and married me. Now I feel I could say the same if someday when I die. I am not afraid of death anymore. If I die, I will see you and that is a good news. If I live, I would live like I mean it and enjoy every moment. You see, there are no downsides for me. πŸ˜‰

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

Man, thank you so much for showing me what true love looked like and how to really live. You and our marriage have shaped me to who I am today. I noticed your influence on the way of how I think and how I act. I see you in my heart, I heard you when I talk and I smile when I think about you.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

Good-bye man. Love you forever!

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

You can read all the Life After Loss series here and Living with Cancer series here.

Life After Loss || A Letter To My Late Husband On The One Year Anniversary

Photo credit: Grace Liang/Ashley Buck

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What To Pack When You Travel From a Cold Place to a Warm Place

For the folks like me who live in a cold region, winter travel can be a bit of a hassle. Especially if you are traveling from a cold place to a warm or hot place. What should you pack?

What To Pack When You Travel From A cold Place To A warm Place

I don’t know about you, I like to travel light, but at the same time still look my best. The key for me is layering and picking multi-functional pieces. Below are some examples to show you what I packed when I traveled from Michigan to Los Angeles and Florida during this last Thanksgiving and New Year.

What To Pack When You Travel From A Winter Place To A Summer Place

1. What to wear to the airport.

On both trips, when I left Michigan the temperature was under 30 and we even had some snow. So my goal was to keep myself warm, comfortable for walking, but still look stylish when I was at the airport or on the plane. I didn’t want to forget when I arrived at either LA or FL, the temperatures was going to be in the upper 70s. In addition, whenever I travel by plane, the plane is always either too hot or too cold. My travel outfit is usually the most difficult one to choose, because it has to serve multiple purposes in very different climates!

What To Pack When You Travel From A Winter Place To A Summer Place

Layering, Layering and Layering

For this airport look, I started from the outerwear. Since I only was going to wear it when I was in Michigan, I really don’t want a big heavy winter coat. When I get on the plane, I have to either pack it into my small carry-on or the overhead bin. The problem is, after I pack this coat, there would be no room left in my small carry-on. During the busy travel season, the overhead bins are often so full that there is no room for anything extra. A light weight, but still warm, winter vest becomes the best choice.

What To Pack When You Travel From A Winter Place To A Summer Place

I love this fur vest since it is very warm and also very stylish. The trick I often use when I pack is to stick with nature colors and basic pieces. This way, most pieces easily to go with each other. So, to pair with this black and white vest, I picked all black or white pieces for the rest of the look. A pair of white sunglasses and a pair of white shoes, which can be used when I arrive in the summer weather. Then, the dark colored cashmere sweater, the tank top underneath the sweater to add the extra layer, and a pair of dark colored jeans, legging or comfy pants. When I arrived, I simply put away my vest and cashmere sweater, and wore my black tank top with my black blazer.

What To Pack When You Travel From A Winter Place To A Summer Place

The last step is to add a bag that can go with this look, but also can be used for more outfits later when I arrive. Again, I stick with the black and white color theme to pick the bag. I will show you more examples right after this. I also used my hot pink suitcases to add happy colors and the fun twist that I always love. πŸ˜‰ By the way, because those suitcases are so easy to spot, they seriously save me time at the baggage claim.

What To Pack When You Travel From A Winter Place To A Summer Place

2. Pick one bag that goes with most outfits

This black and white LOVE bag is super versatile and I used it with almost with every single outfit when I was in LA.

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3. Pack one pair of jeans you can wear for more than two outfits

I wore the same pair of jeans you saw above for 3 different looks below.

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4. Pack light colored booties, instead of dark colored boots

The lighter color will more easily go with your warm weather outfits. I packed my favorite white booties for this purpose.

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5. Pack a dress that can be used multiple ways.

I know it sounds a little bit confusing, but look at this black dress I used a couple of different ways.

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I wore this before to the Steve Madden event too.

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6. Pack one beach maxi dress

If you are going anywhere that has a beach, there is nothing prettier than a maxi dress for that purpose.

What To Pack When You Travel From A Winter Place To A Summer Place

I wore this same dress for our cold weather here in Michigan. If you are a true lover of the boho style, you could even wear the looks below when you are traveling.

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7. Pack one light weight, light colored sweater for the morning and evenings.

Even in LA or FL, early mornings or late evenings during the winter season can still be a little bit chilly, especially if you are going to the beach during those times. A light weight sweater or jacket will be very handy to keep you warm and still look stylish.

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8. Pack statement accessories to spice up your neutral colored outfits.

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I hope all of the examples can help you with your next trip to somewhere warm this winter. πŸ™‚

Photo credit: Grace Liang

Thank you for reading, and if you like what you read, please comment below or share it with your friends. Don’t forget to follow me on Facebook and Twitter for new post updates, and follow me on Instagram for all the amazing fashion, beauty and life style products that I will share with you. Of course, don’t forget to check out my Instagram stories daily to know me better as a person. Finally, don’t forget to follow me on YouTube for my fashion, beauty and life style videos. Have a great day and see you soon!

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Grace
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