With my birthday coming up next Thursday, I have been taking some time to reflect on my life. Life wasn’t always easy but I eventually went from barely surviving early on in life to truly living a joyful and peaceful life after I accepted God into it. To read more about this, check out my book “Finding Grace” which is on sale for $17 for all U.S. shipping addresses (shipping fee and tax included if shipped with the US). Click here to buy it now!
Overall, I have gone through three different transitions in my life.
- Angrily fighting life
The first 30+ years of my life, I was in a constant and angry struggle because I believed that life wasn’t fair. Why did other people have food when I was often starving?
Why did others receive lavish gifts while I didn’t even have warm clothes to wear? Why did other people have loving parents while my parents didn’t seem to even want me and my mom would constantly abuse me? I was no quitter though so I angrily fought with this thing I called fate. I worked very hard to earn a living which barely met my basic needs. I was in a constant state of anger and frustration during this period of my life.
- Hopelessly accepting life
After turning 40 years old, I started to realize that all my pain and anger was due to my relationship with life. There were so many things that were out of my control; I couldn’t control other people or my fate. All I could control was how I saw things. So I decided that instead of fighting, I would just accept the fact that I would have to live a second class life and decided that I just didn’t have any luck.
I worked very hard to earn my lifestyle but then suddenly, I lost everything. I lost my late husband to cancer and my life totally turned upside down. I learned that it was better not to become attached to anyone, any dream or any outcome because eventually I would lose it. Although there was a temporary peace from this realization, there was also a dark, deep hole in my heart where everything felt so hopeless. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t figure out my purpose on this earth and why I was given this life to live.
- Hopefully resting by releasing God‘s power
After walking with God for more than a year now, I have gained a long-lasting peace and joy in my life which I have never experienced before. I truly understand that living gracefully means walking through life with ease and joy by releasing God‘s power into my life. I don’t need to fight anymore because the battle is not mine: it’s God. All I need to do is to rest in him and step out of his way, I let him work through me to achieve results that are hundreds and thousands of times better than what I could do on my own. I don’t need to accept anything that I don’t feel good about in my life anymore.
While it is still true that I can’t control other people or certain circumstances, I can ask God for help. I can ask God to remove the limiting beliefs in me that cause pain. I can ask God to heal me and help me grow into a more powerful person. If these things do not make the situation better, I can ask God to change the people or circumstances if that is part of His plan. What makes this so powerful is that I am now completely at rest yet I have seen so many powerful results because I am in alignment with God. It feels wonderful to be aligned with God and it has even led to me being part of amazing event that saved someone’s life! Now I finally understand. It’s not about what I am doing. It is about who I am in God’s plan and just letting Him work through me.
What do you do to release God‘s power in your life?